This is my second year at CBU, the school I never thought I would attend, the school I never noticed was there every time I drove by Magnolia. It was until one of my cousins decided to come to this campus that I learned a little bit more about the school itself.
As I started my freshmen year, I have to admit that it was dreadful I did not like the school at all, I found I couldn't relate to anyone, I felt like I didn't belong. Not only was being a commuter a conflict, so was the fact that I chose to start taking classes for my major on the first semester, since most of my general ed was finished, and there were hardly any freshmen that I could talk to that were experiencing the same emotions that I was. I just basically started off coming to school, going to work and then crashing at home. Even my high school friends that came to the same school were beginning to grow distant due to our busy schedules. It was seriously not the best experience ever.
As the summer approached, I was so excited that school would finally be out and that I could resume to the life I had before college. I was finally able to relax and enjoy my time with former high school friends that made their way back home from universities outside the city of Riverside. Spending time with them made me realize that it was time to grow up, time to acknowledge that I was no longer in high school and that things would never be the same anymore. Summer was that little make-believe time period that I had to pretend that things would remain the same, but as it came to an end and my friends started going back to school, it was time to face reality. A reality that hurt me deep down inside and that I thought I couldn't live with. I knew I would miss the old days but I also knew that this was my present and that through CBU I would build my future.
Now that I have made it to my sophomore year at CBU I feel more relaxed, more familiar with the people that have the same preoccupations that I do. I figured that it wasn't the school itself that was making me miserable, but the fact that I was closing myself up not allowing happiness with the college choice that I made. Of course CBU was not my first choice, or my second or my third, but this is where God led me and now it is my turn to continue on this journey and start becoming more involved while getting to know more people. I'm truly looking forward to an amazing experience at this campus :)
CBU wasn't my first choice either but somehow I made my way here and into a few programs I now love. It's good you are more accustomed to CBU this year. That weird transition from High School to College can be difficult.
ReplyDeleteThe past few years I've spent at CBU have turned out to be some of the best of my life, though I wouldn't have thought that to be the case when I was in high school. I'm glad that you've gotten more settled this year and I hope that it gets even better from here on out!
ReplyDeleteThis reminds me of my junior year of high school. I moved to a new school 3 hours south of where I grew up. I felt so left out. Everyone knew each other and no one seemed to want to get to know me, and naturally when I feel that I shy away from people. But, looking back I feel as though I learned plenty from that experience. And I too take some of the blame for not getting to know people then. But I do hope you will always find joy on your journey through life =)
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